Huge Happiness...

Last night I was watching an interview and something they said stuck a chord with me. They said " I have a huge priority to be happy." I thought, thanks for the reminder ~ to be happy. About twenty five years ago I use to have a license plate on my car that read "be happy." I still have it and I think I'll get it out and put it in a place to remind myself that I too have a HUGE priority to be happy!!!

Starting Over...

Today I woke up and knew I was feeling a bit off, but I thought I would go run a couple of errands anyway. After attempting to accomplish those things, I realize I had not brought with me what I needed to carry out the errands. So I decided to be kind and not beat myself up for what felt like wasted time and to just go home and "start over". And to see it through the eyes of gratitude would be to say, it wasn't far from home so I really didn't lose that much other then a little effort to get ready.  My list of "to do's" is long so I will just pick another item to accomplish and walk away in peace knowing I was kind to myself today ~ and that's a GOOD thing!

Mean Girl...

Yes... that would be me! A mean girl - to myself. I have noticed when I self-talk to myself I am really not a nice person. I certainly would never say the things I say to myself when I forget something, misplaced something, make choices that in hindsight are not my shining moments, to anther person. But because it's me, myself and I, I think it's okay to not say encouraging and loving things to myself. With awareness comes change and right now I am not happy with the way I'm treating "me", so I am raising my consciousness and looking for change! It feels better already...

Playing...

I have a friend from high school that calls me once or twice a year and one of the questions they always ask me is, " what have you done for fun ". Well if they called today I would tell them I've been playing in my kitchen all weekend.  On Saturday I made GF/DF banana bread, homemade apple pie, fresh pesto from my garden, granola cereal, GF/DF choc. chip, and my own laundry detergent. Sunday I strained out all my herbal oils and tinctures that a dear friend and I are working together on. Somewhere in there I made our usual "biscuits for breakfast" for Saturday and "syrupy something for Sunday breakfast and a couple of dinners. Whew!!!

Oh - but it was fun!

Death in the present moment...

A dear friend passed away yesterday. He had been sick for quite awhile but that never makes the passing easier. My first thought was "oh I wish I would have..." but then I thought about all the times I'd been there for him, the time he and is wife opened their home for my son and I to live and the really nice lunch we had together not long ago. That is how I want to remember his presences in my life. I want to celebrate the good and find comfort in the moments that he circled planet earth.

You will me missed - Doug Boone.. thanks for lunch : )

It's Clear...

It became clear to me today after some quiet time and conversation with a friend yesterday that it's okay to not know. My journey from safe and "the known" is moving to the unknown and with awareness and shining a little light on it, it's not so scary. I put pressure on myself to think I should have all the answers  because it will make me and those around me more comfortable . As fear was setting in, my reflex thought is to make it go away and/or fix it somehow. But today I am resting in the "present moment" with the unknown and will let it sit beside me and maybe one day soon we will become very good friends.

New eyes...

Words I read in a book today (about descriptive writing) said "the problem with eyes is that we get used to having them.
Case in point: Genn built a big fort, taking up my whole living room and when I got up this morning she had taken it all done, but did I notice that? NO... my eyes had gotten use to my surrounding and I couldn't see what was right in front of me.
More words from the book: " the beholders eye, requires attention. If we look closely enough and stay in the moment long enough, we may be granted new eyes.

A good reminder for today - when in the present moment long enough - I see with new eyes!