The Roller Coaster Ride...

Roller coasters are on my "least favorite things" list, but that is what my life is right now and I am trying to figure out how to "enjoy the ride" with the least resistance. I felt better yesterday, but today I let one little potential setback throw me on the downward spiral and I don't want to go there. If this is my life right now then I have to go with all the ups and downs with grace, patience and love for myself that I can muster. Its hard trusting the outcome, even when you have a plan, things shift, change and that doesn't always mean for the worse. I can expect more then I could have ever imagined for myself and my children and I may have to take a different route and head a different direction. And for those who know me well, know driving and going places unknown is on the top of my "least favorite list!" So this roller coaster ride is quit the challenge for me.

A slow pace...

I have discovered in the last few months that I am a slow person. I think slow, I read slow, I make decisions slow, I walk slow, but one thing I don't do slow is eat. Over the years with young children and living a life for others eating was just something I could do fast and keep going. I am trying to to more mindful of what and how I'm eating. I still find myself eating on the run, even in my own home. Chewing to fast and then wondering when the food is all gone what it was I just ate. I love to cook and I enjoy the process of preparing the food but sitting down and focusing on the end result is harder. But with a little practise and patience I can learn to once again savor the food that is prepared and placed before me, whether that is made by me or someone else.