What i need from You...

Today was a dark day of not being able to see the forest for the trees. Of hope lost and answers to questions that rang hollow in my soul. I need you to hold the space for me. To hold hope, encouragement, kindness and love to see me through when I am lost. I know this too shall pass, but when your sitting in the dark looking for light, and you see non - it gets scary. Your what I hold onto when I forge ahead blindly, that kind word, that small gesture, these are the moments of brightness I use until my strength returns but until then... this is what I need from you.

Thank You

Dark...

It's that time of year again... when darkness arrives sooner then I had hoped. With each passing year I've come to embrace all the seasons. They each have there own uniqueness to appreciate, but it takes me longer in the winter to adjust to the early, dark evening sky. My body just wants to stop all activities and snuggle up somewhere comfy. I am still learning from the absence of light when winter introduces herself once again. 

Reality...

On New Year's day I declared this would be the year I believe in ME! Oh okay with that said I am having to live that statement everyday. Today I am wavering - one minute I think I will never amount to anything and the next I believe without a doubt. My stomach is in a knot. I did my yoga and meditating, and it helped but I'm already back to "oh no, can I do this?". I keep trying to stop myself from going to far down that thought pattern, because I know it only snowballs into a very dark place. One of my goals each day is to do things differently because "they" say the definition of insanity is "doing the same thing over and expecting different results". So here I go...