What i need from You...

Today was a dark day of not being able to see the forest for the trees. Of hope lost and answers to questions that rang hollow in my soul. I need you to hold the space for me. To hold hope, encouragement, kindness and love to see me through when I am lost. I know this too shall pass, but when your sitting in the dark looking for light, and you see non - it gets scary. Your what I hold onto when I forge ahead blindly, that kind word, that small gesture, these are the moments of brightness I use until my strength returns but until then... this is what I need from you.

Thank You

Silliness...

 

 "Live a life of love, honesty, appreciation, kindness, and strength. Sprinkled with a little silliness."

I liked this quote because I always need reminding to add a little sprinkle of silliness to my life!

Naked...

 

 I've been observing winters naked trees and thinking about how they resemble being vulnerable. You can see clearly all that's inside. All the things that have been broken and all the things that hold your strength. There is no where to hide, your leaves have fallen off and your exposed. I want to find that comfortable, safe place within, to allow myself to be that vulnerable. To expose myself to the world by just being me. To know that is enough and when the spring arrives, I will sprout new growth

Refuge...

"The library had become her solace. Her refuge. Books did not question or judge. They made safe companions."

Inglath Cooper, Truth and Roses: A Love Story

We all need a place of refuge from life. I'm glad my children feel that way about their home and with friends and families homes. To find refuge to relax, to not have to feel like you have to be anything but your imperfect, perfect self is a time to gather strength to keep moving forward in each present moment.  When I'm not able to be with those people who provide solace, I find it in books, nature, food, art, quiet time, and animals.

A Bird...

"A bird sitting on a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking, because her trust is not in the branch, but on her own wings."

I have posted this quote before but it was a good reminder for me today to remember my strength is not dependent on the branch I am sitting on or what will happen to that branch. My strength lies internally and when I trust in that "knowing" no matter what happens or where I am my strength does not faultier.

Fine Line...

I told someone the other day that I wasn't a "needy" person and then the next day I had MAJOR stress happen and I was afraid to call or reach out because I just said I wasn't needy. But I got to thinking about it and is reaching out really needy? I guess my life had been so saturated with "needy" people for so long, I get confused and think I should be strong and not ask for a shoulder to cry on. Well another thought pattern to rearrange in my brain ~ having someone to lean on when they offer, is not "needy" but maybe actually a strength.

Necessary...

"You have a strength of your own that is great enough to do all that is necessary."

Ernest Homes

This is my hope! I'm trying each day to do a little something towards stepping closer to the unknown in my life. There are a lot of steps I have control over, so while all the other is working itself out I can keep getting a little closer and believing in my strength to do ALL that is necessary.

Pain...

It's hard to sit back and allow someone to work out their pain the way that works for them. And when it's your child, all my motherly instincts wants to "do" something, anything to stop the process of anger, hurt and then find the strength to wait quietly for the sun to shine on acceptance. There are no band-aids that  heal the heart, and all I have to offer is my love, courage and strength, enough to muster up for all of us.

Inspiring...

" Your life is your message to the world. Make sure it is inspiring."

Lauren Conrad

I hope that the life I live will inspire those who see it, and long after I'm gone people will remember the courage, the strength and the love that I work on in my daily life. I'm just trying to be "me", with all its mishaps and triumphs, and let that be good enough.

Strength...

"The task ahead of you is never greater than the strength within you."

... there is great strength within! I can do this ~ and the greatest part, is I don't have to do it alone!!!

Strength...

"Strength doesn't come from what you can do~

It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn't."

Today I'm struggling ~ with strength...