Sustains...

It is the twentieth day of December and there hasn't been one day yet, with a day off. It has been busy busy busy and I'm feeling the need to connect with nature and hug a tree! And if it wasn't so cold outside, I'd plant my feet in the grass and feel grounded. I haven't even been out in my backyard to check on my garlic that's growing. But things will slow down soon and I will reconnect once again to what sustains me ~ Mother Nature!

Balance...

This week was busy and lots of "things" around the house got left until there is time to get them done. Well today had space in it and as time went on I found myself overwhelmed with so much rushing. I know I can't get it all accomplished today and I will have some time tomorrow but I decided to stop doing the " to do" list and find something I enjoy - and DO IT! I'm feeling better and now have a better attitude to get back to my list. I have always struggled with this balance of work and pleasure. Always waiting to do the thing that gives me pleasure till after I'm done with the work. And that never happens because the work is never done and then I'm going to bed unhappy knowing I just did the same thing I've always done. So I caught the feeling today and decided to do something different. 

Melt down...

"Don't forget your human. It's okay to have a melt down. Just don't unpack and live there. Cry it out and then refocus on where you are headed."

I do forget often that I'm human. My mind is so busy surviving and working at keeping it all together that I don't allow the melt down and the good cry as much as my body asks for it. But the times I have, I do refocus and start again. It's a good reminder to embrace my humanness in this present moment.

Nothing...

I remember years ago I owned a book called "The Art of Doing Nothing" and the last couple of days that's just want I wanted to do. My schedule was busy, and I tried to carve out time to do that, but it's hard when so many things are calling for my attention. It just sounds so good right now... doing NOTHING. nothing, nothing, nothing!

Pajama's...

Today I've decided to have a pajama party for one! I had a very very busy couple of weeks and today I don't have to do anything for anyone or go anywhere, so I slept in late, and will just stay in my PJ's all day. I'm such a home body, so hanging out and puttering around my house is an awesome day for me.

Busy...

Made me laugh : )

"Be happy for this moment, for this moment is your life."

I have a very busy day today, so I will work on being happy in all my present moments today because these moments are my life!

Visit...

My oldest son comes up a couple times a month to eat, help around the house and hang out playing games etc. He lives about 20-25 minutes from my house, but life can get busy for everyone and it's always wonderful to spend those few hours together even though we live so close. Today is no exception, Matt is coming to visit and I couldn't be happier!

Too Busy...

I'm still learning - when I get too busy - to take a transition time and pause... Because when I don't, I do things like burn my son's pizza I made him tonight. Not happy with myself but also a good reminder to take that time. So I went to the store and bought a pizza. All is well and I can be in this present moment, love myself and start over again.

Sitting Still...

"We all believe there is something: a train to catch on time, an apple to pick in the fall, a coin we dropped by the parking meter to retrieve. All of this is true, It is a moment. It cannot be held on to and made forever."

What freedom when you sit down in the middle of your busy life, to unroot the urgency, the feeling that everything is an emergency."

words from: The True Secret of Writing

Finding that moment to "stop" and be still is hard. If my body is not running my mind is. I often feel that sense of urgency for everything, forgetting that when I can quiet my mind or just sit still and allow the calm, the urgency passes. It's a habit I'm working on - progress not perfection.

One breath at a time...

Busy... Busy... Busy...

At least once a month there is a week where it's very busy with things I have to get done. They all come at the same time. I am a slow person so when one of those weeks arrives I have to really use my skills to not get to overwhelmed - like I feel today. Thought if I wrote about it, it might help release some of the pressure that is building as today is Wednesday and I have until Friday to accomplish everything. Some of the things are out of my comfort zone as well, which only adds to the pressure. I don't like it, but I know I can get through this. 

My mantra today is "There is time enough for all that I need to do."