Years...

"There are years that ask questions and years that answer."

Zora Neale Hurston

I feel like for most of my life have been about the question, and have I been listening? I've always been in a hurry to find out the answer and that not listening close enough, has lead to choices that didn't feed my soul. My intention as the New Year approaches is to listen deeper and follow the answers that leave me feeling full.

My Soul Craves...

http://www.oprah.com/own-super-soul-sunday/Full-Episode-Madonna-Badger-Video

I hadn't watched Oprah's Super Soul Sunday in a long time. The channel had been taking off my cable choices but yesterday I decided to sit down and try to watch it on my phone. It was a heavy subject for me having experienced so many deaths in my former families lives, but I got a message that I was suppose to hear...

"Let somebody love you"

I realized after hearing that, how much I don't allow that to happen, and instead, offer in return, a resistance to its existence. THIS is what "my soul craves." Madonna Badger said in this episode of Super Soul Sunday that when she called someone up to share her grief one day, the other person on the phone told her to, "find someone to love you" and by "letting someone love you" she found healing.

I want to let this sink deeply within my soul and give it room to grow. And the next time someone offers kind words, gives me a gift, or when I reach out to share my grief, I will try to remember to feed my soul what it craves, by...

"Letting somebody love me!"


This is a cooperative blog a friend and I are writing, exploring different topics. This is her blog..
http://gentlegull.blogspot.com/2014/10/my-soul-craves.html

Self Love...

"When you start to pursue an inspired life, it changes you. You don't fit in anymore to a world of negativity and complaint. Though you may feel like you don't fit in your old life, you will finally fit into your own skin. Then you will fit in everywhere. Self-love changes everything!

Words borrowed from~ Tama J. Kieves

Self-love really does change everything. The more I love myself the better the choices I make, honor who I am becoming, and honor those around me. I'm creating a new normal for myself and loving my "whole"self a little more with each passing day.... the more love I give yourself, the more love I can offer to others.

A Dumbledore Quote.....

"It is our choices, Harry, that show us what we truly are, far more than our abilities."

In the past, "my abilities" seemed to equate with my value as a person and how much someone would love me. I am learning in this school called life that if I want to do something for someone or not, it does not change who I am as a human being or how much I deserved to be loved. Practising being present, brings awareness to the choices I make everyday, and reminds me they don't need a price tag on them. I can also see when I make choices more consciously the more authentic they become and that always feels right.

Choices...

Each moment gives me another opportunity to be present and aware of what choices I am making. I have been trying to make a effort each morning to choose to do the things that I value in my life for me, first. I wake up, feed the animals, drink my glass of water, do my yoga (I feel a differences in my stiff bones), choose a healthy breakfast and sit down to work on my writing (even if only for 5 or 10 minutes). Then I will check my email/ facebook and allow myself to play some games that I enjoy. Sounds so simple but each morning I have to make a conscious effort or else I will be off doing whatever it is that takes my time and leaves me feeling bad at the end of the day that I didn't do what I felt was important to me. So far so good - one moment at a time!