Reconstructing A Life...

My life goes on... driving, cleaning, cooking, shopping, making phone calls, talking with friends, watering plants, getting dressed... but in the shadow, lingers grief and an unsettled unknowing of how to "reconstruct a new life." The people that surround me have not changed, mother nature provides her constant  beauty that is unwavering, and my children remain ever present and close. These are the things I hold onto as I stumble along, looking for refuge, while newness comes each day asking for my assistance.
I'm reminded that reconstruction comes with time... one step at a time. What was. is gone, you sift through the rubble and hold on to the good, while letting go of all that no longer serves you. You listen closer, now that the noise of the past is silent...and you begin!

Limelight...

I've spent most of my life in the shadows and I felt at the time I liked it that way. But life keeps calling me out into the light to be seen and I have to say it's something that is WAY out of my comfort zone and something I must continue to respond with a "yes - I'm all in!" I heard at the conference I went too, that the more I stretch myself and go beyond my comfort zone I will build a "new normal." So here I go... tip toeing out into the light every so slowly.