Grandmother...

I was informed yesterday that I am now joining the rakes of all those that came before me called, "Grandmother." My emotions have swung to and fro but nine months from now I will meet my first grandchild! It's a strange feeling but one I can't wait to celebrate. I love you already "wee one"... my first born son ( my baby) is now having his own baby!

Sometimes...

Sometimes life hands you a situation and you are left to wrestle with your emotions. That is what I have done all afternoon. I think I have come to a peaceful conclusion that my heart can live with. Life is constantly asking us to dig a little deeper and find that place within, that may not be perfect but offers our soul a safe resting place.

Single...

Today I'm tired of being single. Not that I haven't felt that before but I just wanted to say it out loud and maybe the sting of it wouldn't feel so strong. In my life I'm continually working on letting my emotions flow instead of labeling them or feeling like I shouldn't feel something. I'm not sure what to do with this feeling other then to let it stay or go as it needs to. I just long for that conversation or knowing that there is a soft shoulder to lean on.

Discovery...

"Discovery consist not in seeking new land but in seeing with new eyes."

Marcel Proust

My situation at home hasn't changed but when I can see it with new eyes it changes. But for me that is one present moment at a time. I get caught up in emotions and defining those from past experiences. But I can choose to start over and see with new eyes in this present moment I'm in.