A smile...

It has been two years since I've written on my blog and it always feels good to be back, no matter how long I've been gone. Within those two years LOTS has pass through my life and heart. Today there is a smile on my face. A smile that knows "all is well. A smile that radiates a knowing that I will not forsake or abandon myself for any reason. A smile that holds love for the people in my life that mean so much. A smile for my creativity that flows and a smile... just because I'm me!

FLOW....

My word this year is... FLOW! Yes - flow with an exclamation mark! I have spent most of my life resisting what is and not allowing for fear of the unknown. But this past year working in an art journal has really helped me walk into the unknown a little more willing and a little less resistant. So that is why I picked the word flow. I want the unknown to flow freely in and out of my life. I want "all" to pass through my life with our judgment or labels and just let it be and - F....L....O....W.................................................

Story...

 

 "Description begins in the writer's imagination. But should finish in the readers."

Stephen King

I've noticed as I've chosen to show up for my creativity each and everyday that the fiction book that has laid dormant in my mind, has begun to surface. The pages speak to me, wanting to be written and set free. I find it interesting that when I've allowed my creativity to have a higher priority in my life, creativity continues to flow, even all that was buried deep within. It feels good to be thinking about my story again, it has been with me for about 15 years. I've kept it captive and locked away... a place that felt safe. But through my art journal, I'm learning to walk with the unknown present moment by present moment. Allowing it to flow even when I don't know what I will meet when I arrive.

Blank...

 

Living far away from those you enjoy spending time with can sometimes be a challenge to stay connected. One of my dear friends is always coming up with really neat ideas to continue to reconnect with each other. The last thing we did since we both are bloggers, is to participate in a cooperative blog. We each came up with a set of topics, then we decided how often we wanted to blog together, then she put it on the calendar as reminders. That was fun because it gave me things to think about that I might other wise not. And I enjoyed sharing her perspective on the subjects too. Now her newest idea is to do a cooperative art journal ( we have done our own as well and she even hand made this one for me) and exchange them periodically either in person if we are so lucky to get together or by mail.Then we would add something to the others journal and exchange again until it is full. But I found myself, as it always has been, intimidated by the blank page and the ideas of what I want to do with it. But with this awareness I am trying to let that go and just "flow" with the process. So I find myself a tiny bit excited to watch it all unfold.

Extra...

"Embrace the glorious mess that you are."

Elizabeth Gilbert

Feeling a bit overwhelmed today and trying to - "Embrace the glorious mess that I am."

But I'm trying to allow the feeling to flow freely ~ and love myself just a little extra!

Breath...

I woke up today very overwhelmed!!! I'm trying to BREATH through each present moment and offer NO resistance. Some moments are more successful then others, but that's okay. I know "this too shall pass" and I'm trying to flow with what is.

Single...

Today I'm tired of being single. Not that I haven't felt that before but I just wanted to say it out loud and maybe the sting of it wouldn't feel so strong. In my life I'm continually working on letting my emotions flow instead of labeling them or feeling like I shouldn't feel something. I'm not sure what to do with this feeling other then to let it stay or go as it needs to. I just long for that conversation or knowing that there is a soft shoulder to lean on.

Softly...

Sometimes when I'm looking for answers or at least a "knowing" of what seems right at the moment, I have to retreat and withdraw from the world even when I'm in it. After having done that for a week, my answer come softly and it seemed more about letting go of my resistance to an idea of the way "I thought" something should be and letting things flow in a new direction. 

Doubt...

I'm having one of those day's where someone said some sideways remarks yesterday to me and today I woke up doubting everything I believe. I'm learning quicker and quicker not to resist and allow the uncomfortable place to be there. Then I hang on to the saying " This to shall pass" and it does leave me much faster when I can let it flow through instead of damning it up.

Receive...

"When the uni-verse takes something from your grasp, it is not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better."

Mastin Kipp

This is my hope as things in my life are going away ~ that my hands will be ready to receive something better then I could ever imagine! That I can allow ALL the new possibilities to flow without resistance.

Blindfolded...

Right now in my life I feel like I am walking around with a blindfold on. It feels like EVERYTHING  is unknown ~ my health, my home, my car, my work, a relationship. Guess it's time to LOVE the unknown and flow with it. Resistance is useless...  Letting go is freeing!

Morning...

"Life just is. You have to flow with it. Give yourself to the moment. Let it happen."

 ~ Jerry Brown 

   American politician

This picture looked like a good place to start my day. The ocean holds great memories, old and new. It relaxes me to look out over the vast ocean, listening to the waves and let "life flow, letting it happen." I always offer such resistance to life and I need a constant reminder to "give myself to the moment." I will breath deeply and "let it happen."

Listening...

Today I listened to a feeling ~ and contacted someone I'd been thinking about. I don't the reason they had been on my mind but I just wanted to not question the feeling and do it. Can't say after I talked with them that I know anymore about "why", but it doesn't really matter. It felt good to just "go with the feeling"! Somethings in life "just are"~No great cosmic, deep meaning to them and if it does I will be open to hear what it's saying to me. It's a relief not to over analyze things and allow it to flow in and out like the river, where ever it needs to go.