Shopping...

Something to accept about myself... 

Christmas shopping, present shopping, or shopping for things other then food causes me great anxiety. I don't really know why and this time of year I start beating myself up because I feel like I "shouldn't" be that way. So I decided to be kinder to myself and try and accept that is just a part of who I am. I'm not perfect and my hope is that those I love don't base my genuine feelings for them on gift giving.

Grieving...

"Grief Attacks"

When grieving we can be going along and everything seems to be okay. then out of nowhere grief hits full force. These are not set backs, they are a part of the grieving experience.

Grief... an old friend returns. I'd been wondering what was going on with me the last few weeks. I'd be okay one moment and then feeling sad and crying the next.  It's a process of letting go, of leaving behind, of complete unknown. I've know "grief" before and it has come back to visit once again. Now that I know, I can continue to be kinder to myself, to help my children walk through this seemingly dark and scary time with grace and peace. Welcome old friend... we shall walk this path together until we no longer need each other.

Writing...

 Goals like writing a novel don’t die on their own. We suffocate them with our excuses.

I came across this line in a magazine about writing. How true this is for me!!!! I should write a book called "Endless Excuses" and dedicate it to myself. But keeping with the theme of being kinder to myself, I will pat myself on the back for writing more diligently on my blog. At least I'm writing and thinking about writing and that's a "good thing". Something I can celebrate about myself and not look at what I think I'm NOT doing. I've been enjoying my time everyday, pondering what to say here in this present moment and in this musing space. So until tomorrow ~ Enjoy what makes you happy!