Jealous...

 

I found myself having a hard time feeling like I needed to let go of jealousy with a particular person in my life. Then I realized I didn't need to get rid of it, but dig deeper into what that feeling was trying to tell me. And it was FEAR... fear that I would never have what they seem to have right now. That I will always be left without - that special someone that would love me. A relationship to share my vulnerability, my laughter, my tears, my children, my hopes and dreams. Someone to chat with about life and love, that person to feel accepted and genuinely cared about. The jealousy has not left me yet, so I will give it a safe place to be for now without judgement or labels and love myself until...

Big House...

Late week I was pet sitting for someone who lived it a BIG BIG house ( much bigger then this one pictured), it was like a museum! And I kept thinking I should be feeling jealous and maybe if I had the money to have a house like that you hire people to keep up with cleaning, yard work etc. and then it would seem delightful ~ Nope ~ none of that appealed to me! Simple is the way for me. I keep thinking about one of those "little houses" or a mobile house to drive and park where ever my little heart wants to be.