Jealous...

 

I found myself having a hard time feeling like I needed to let go of jealousy with a particular person in my life. Then I realized I didn't need to get rid of it, but dig deeper into what that feeling was trying to tell me. And it was FEAR... fear that I would never have what they seem to have right now. That I will always be left without - that special someone that would love me. A relationship to share my vulnerability, my laughter, my tears, my children, my hopes and dreams. Someone to chat with about life and love, that person to feel accepted and genuinely cared about. The jealousy has not left me yet, so I will give it a safe place to be for now without judgement or labels and love myself until...

Emerge...

The other day I was comparing myself to all people who knew what they wanted from when they were young. All their creative ideas had been nurtured and tended to for so long, and I found myself asking why - why couldn't I have known and flourished when I was in my youth. But then it came to me later that day... I did what my heart wanted when I was young - and that was to be a mother. That was my creative path. Was it done perfectly or did it turn out as I had hoped - NO. But no dreams are obtained without some failure and trial and error. There are creative ideas that started out one way and completely ended up nothing like you thought it would be. I am now in a new place where my mothering is not in the for front of my life and new creative energy is trying to emerge.

Size...

"Dreams come a size too big, so we can grow into them."

I found this quote and thought it was cute and true. Never thought of it that way! It's nice to know my dreams are bigger then I could imagine and given space and time I can actually grow into them. Also nice to know that something doesn't have to fit just right the first time I imagine it and over time it will fit like a glove.

Hopes and Dreams...

I realized letting go of my house is the same as my marriage. It is more about letting go of the illusion of what I thought I had and wanted. Neither my marriage or my home had materialized to be what I had hoped and dreamed. So as I continue to shuffle and sort through all the stuff in my house, preparing to leave it behind, I mourn. I mourn for all that was and wasn't, and to start a new chapter in my life, filled with all my hopes and dreams!!!

Bigger...

"Anything that looks like chaos and calamity in your life is just he Universe's way of saying, Trust me and we'll make a life together that is beyond your wildest dreams. The key is to trust. There's a bigger vision and purpose inside you that your small brain or Ego can imagine. The Universe has bigger and better plans for you. It's job to be of service and not get in your own way. You can only receive what you believe. When you trust you open yourself up to greater possibilities outside of your control or imagination. So what's it gunna be? Fear or Trust?

Anon

This will be my mantra today... TRUST.  It's a moment by moment struggle, and with each present moment I do the best that I can and remember to keep picking up TRUST every time I drop it.

Questions...

"How big can you allow your life to be?"

"How big can you dream?"

These are the questions I need to wake up with each present moment. These are the questions I need allow into my life and be ready to answer "YES" when the time comes. But with every BIG dream there thousands of tiny moments to say yes and to allow in. I want to savor them all ~ 

A Tree...

It's a tree I look for when I go somewhere and need to park. It's not always the case but my love of trees draws me to them whenever possible, even if it's in a parking lot. I need trees to surround me, or at least be close enough that I can get to them. One of my dreams is to see the big Red Wood and all there magnificence.  A tree provides, shelter, comfort and strength for me. A true "tree hugger" I am!

Destiny...

"We get side tracked in life by so many people who squash our dreams, but in reality it’s not them, it’s US squashing our dreams, by accepting their opinion and assessment of the situation, instead of making our opinion and self-approval, what matters most."

words borrowed from; The Daily Love

I've done this so many times in my life, gotten side tracked and let another's opinion squash my dreams. They only had to say one negative thing and that was all I needed to hear. It was what I was already feeling and their words just gave me the excuse to tell myself I was right all along. But ultimately it is not them or anyone else that is to blame. My destiny is in my hands and we each speak from our own story and experience and their experience is not mine nor mine theirs. 

Self-love + self-approval = my destiny!

Setting Sun...

I love the setting sun and how it symbolizes the ending of another day. It makes me reflects on how well I loved and how well I lived this day. As I sleep, I find peace that "all is well" and sweet dreams transcends me to a new dawn.

It's never to late...

Be Inspired...

Working dreams won’t get you rich. But amazing things happen when you take risks.

In summer of ’98, I sold my drum kit for gas money and convinced my college roommate to drive me from Ithaca to San Diego. All I kept was a pack of Field Notes and my Beach Boys records. “Wouldn’t It Be Nice” was playing and it was at that moment that I decided to invest in myself. I had thirty bucks, a landline, and a ton of motivation.

I have never written a business plan, yet I have three businesses that I’ve been running for over a decade now. I can’t read a lick of sheet music, yet I’ve toured the world managing bands. You wouldn’t want me to adjust your camera’s F-stop, yet I’ve worked on three films and produced a web series.

I don’t know anything about book publishing, so naturally, I wrote and self-published a book.

I’ve never been overly great at drawing, but I’ve been an art director on projects for Zappos, MTV, and TOMS. I don’t drive a Ford, but I’m continually hired to help promote their vehicles.

I grew up attending public schools and battled with reading comprehension, yet now I’m invited to lecture at Ivy Leagues.

I don’t own cable television, but I’ve licensed music to Californication, Nip/Tuck, CSI, and Grey’s Anatomy. CSS, HTML, and Java mean nothing to me, yet I’m preparing to launch an iPhone app.

Life changes the minute you start doing what you love. And guess what—it’s never too late to get started.

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Dave Brown lives in Brooklyn, NY. By day, he’s Etsy’s social media specialist and by night, a blogger, author, record label owner and creative consultant. Dave’s a huge fan of ice-hockey, chicken teriyaki, and the film Rushmore. Anyone interested in making this world more awesome is someone Dave likes to meet and collaborate with. He coined the motto, “Love your work. Work your love.”