It's in the Present Moments...

Today while my soul aches with grief, I sit outside among the trees, the warmth of the sun, the birds and mother nature. She gently reminds me to stay in the present moment and gather the smallest of moments that can drift by without notice and allow them to soften the sharp edges.

"My smallest of moments"...

A postcard of shared sorrow and hope

A friends shared tears and laughter

A small package of thoughtfulness

A meal offered and shared

A welcoming place to be

Animals with unconditional love

Quiet time with healing space

A car taken care of and safe to travel

Projects to work on, made with loving hands and heart 

Surrounded with art that speaks and soothes

and...human kindness that connects us all.

Jealous...

 

I found myself having a hard time feeling like I needed to let go of jealousy with a particular person in my life. Then I realized I didn't need to get rid of it, but dig deeper into what that feeling was trying to tell me. And it was FEAR... fear that I would never have what they seem to have right now. That I will always be left without - that special someone that would love me. A relationship to share my vulnerability, my laughter, my tears, my children, my hopes and dreams. Someone to chat with about life and love, that person to feel accepted and genuinely cared about. The jealousy has not left me yet, so I will give it a safe place to be for now without judgement or labels and love myself until...

Miss...

I was looking forward to finally connecting with friends that I don't get to see very often anymore and the plans all fell through. I found my self in tears missing that connection, missing the time I use to have and missing a significant other in my life that you don't have to try so hard because they know you and are there for you ~ always. I am letting the tears flow and the feeling pass through without resistance. It's not the first time I've felt it and I'm sure it won't be the last. But it reminds me to pay a little more attention to those far away and to keep that connection alive, no matter the distance.

Renewed...

Letting go is a process. It comes in stages of grief, anger and acceptance. Somedays I'm in all those places. My tears release and wash the feeling clean and I am renewed to continue on this journey. As the next present moment presents itself, I allow it to flow through me without judgement. I am strong and brave...

Crying...

Ever just feel like crying? That's what I feel like today. I need a hug, I need assurance that all will be okay, I just wish there was someone's shoulder to cry on. In my heart of hearts I know things will work out but in this present moment ~ it's hard to hold on to that ~ to be strong and brave, when all I want to do is being comforted by someone else. My life is filled with LOVE and SUPPORT from many, but right now my tears fall alone ~ but a good cry can be a good thing.

"This too shall pass"