Deep Listening

"We can always begin by allowing ourselves to sink into the depth of whatever moment we are in. For depth is ever-present. We don't have to travel to find depth. We simply have to relax our minds onto the ground of where we are, the way roots unravel in the earth after a long, soaking rain."

Deep listening is something I've been working on for a while now. But I had it backwards... I've been trying to deeply listen to others, and not to myself. Somehow it seemed easier to listen to another. There isn't the wondering if what I'm hearing is something I have the courage to do, because it's your story not mine. But since committing to love and honor myself, this is something I must do ~ for me! To love, honor and deeply listen to all parts of myself, even when what I hear, seems frightening. 

Writing...

 Goals like writing a novel don’t die on their own. We suffocate them with our excuses.

I came across this line in a magazine about writing. How true this is for me!!!! I should write a book called "Endless Excuses" and dedicate it to myself. But keeping with the theme of being kinder to myself, I will pat myself on the back for writing more diligently on my blog. At least I'm writing and thinking about writing and that's a "good thing". Something I can celebrate about myself and not look at what I think I'm NOT doing. I've been enjoying my time everyday, pondering what to say here in this present moment and in this musing space. So until tomorrow ~ Enjoy what makes you happy!

Time Change...

It's that time again ~ seasons change ~ darkness arrives sooner then before.

I've been through 52 years of season changes, and it still takes me awhile to adjust.

The darkness use to be something I dreaded, but now I look forward to the barren tree's and the chance to do some internal and external hibernation.

Death...

Death has taken another friend...

My thoughts to ponder during this time of grief...

Death is a great teacher. You have to be willing to look at what it would be like if death was staring you in the face. Let this knowledge help you to live every moment of your life fully, because every moment matters. What is it inside of us that is so afraid that it keeps us from just enjoying life? Be willing to be fully present without being afraid of what will happen in the next moment. Life is not something to waste. It's truly precious. That's why death is such a great teacher. Death is your friend!

Listening...

Today I listened to a feeling ~ and contacted someone I'd been thinking about. I don't the reason they had been on my mind but I just wanted to not question the feeling and do it. Can't say after I talked with them that I know anymore about "why", but it doesn't really matter. It felt good to just "go with the feeling"! Somethings in life "just are"~No great cosmic, deep meaning to them and if it does I will be open to hear what it's saying to me. It's a relief not to over analyze things and allow it to flow in and out like the river, where ever it needs to go.

To Honor and Love...

Sounds like a wedding...

But I'm promising myself this statement ~ to honor and love myself...

To honor myself means ~ as I grow, I will not ignore or hide the parts of my soul and humanness that become more present in me and the world. To honor myself means that I make a commitment to keep the truth of who I am visible; that I will not let the truth of my being become invisible again. Or if it does, I will stay devoted to retrieving it!

Breathing Space...

Trust ~Surrender~Allow

Today I am allowing my mind and body freedom to "just be" and to breath into this space, to embrace the beauty around me: my children, my home where love flows freely, the change in seasons and the unknown that has become my constant companion.