Tuesday, October 25, 2016

It's in the Present Moments...


Today while my soul aches with grief, I sit outside among the trees, the warmth of the sun, the birds and mother nature. She gently reminds me to stay in the present moment and gather the smallest of moments that can drift by without notice and allow them to soften the sharp edges.

"My smallest of moments"...

A postcard of shared sorrow and hope
A friends shared tears and laughter
A small package of thoughtfulness
A meal offered and shared
A welcoming place to be
Animals with unconditional love
Quiet time with healing space
A car taken care of and safe to travel
Projects to work on, made with loving hands and heart 
Surrounded with art that speaks and soothes
and...human kindness that connects us all.






Friday, October 21, 2016

Fish out of water...


"The ache for home lives in all of us, the safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned."
Maya Angelou

As my search for my forever home continues, I've realized I'm feeling like a "fish out of water." I'm such a homebody and a home is a place of refuge and a place to recharge from the world for me. But I am forever grateful for the refuge I do have among people who have provided a safe and loving place to be while I turn the page of this new chapter in my and my children's lives. Today in this present moment I will breathe deeply and remember this quote...

"Home is where the heart is."

Saturday, October 8, 2016

Collaging...

I have collaged on and off for years and there has never been a time when I haven't loved it, but I never knew why, not that there really was a reason to know, other then it makes me happy. But recently, as I'm in the space of working on it more, it finally came to me. Being a visually learner, collaging has been my visual affirmations and it is my place that has no right and wrong. It is my space to just be!

Friday, October 7, 2016

Words and Self Forgiveness...


"She could never go back and make some of the details pretty. All she could do was move forward and make the whole beautiful."
Terri St. Cloud

Talking with a friend the other day reminded me again how words can be destructive and hurtful or loving and kind.  Like a mirror held up to my soul I saw these destructive and hurtful words about people that haven't even been in my life for a very long time as something more. Those words were really directed at me and had nothing to really do with them. It shined a light on a place within me that is still in need of self-forgiveness. So today I will pick up this present moment and carry with me kinder more loving words for those around me and myself.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Give Sorrow Words... ~ Macbeth, William Shakespeare

Today - My grief swells like the wave that swells and collects all that lay beneath, then scatters it upon the sand, exposed and raw. Today - I find comfort in others words, words that express more then my soul is able to say.


~Sometimes the purpose of the day is to merely feel our sadness, knowing that as we do, we allow whole layers of grief, like old skin cells to drop off us. ~ Marianne Williamson

~"Ah, I smiled. I'm not really here to keep you from freaking out. I'm here to be with you while you freak out, or grieve, or laugh, or suffer, or sing. It is a ministry of presence. It is showing up with a loving heart." ~Kate Braestrup, Here If You Need Me: A True Story 

~Grief is not a disorder, a disease or a sign of weakness. It is an emotional, physical, and spiritual necessity, the price you pay for love. The only cure for grief is to grieve. ~ Earl Grollman

~"Deep grief sometimes is almost like a specific location, a coordinate on a map of time. When you are standing in that forest of sorrow, you cannot ever imagine you could ever find your way to a better place. But if someone can assure you that they themselves have stood in that same place, and now have moved on, sometimes this will bring hope." ~Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

~Those who have suffered understand suffering and therefore extend their hand. ~ Patti Smith

Friday, September 23, 2016

The Wishies...

As I was out quieting my mind this morning, I noticed the dandelion seeds, which I have always called "wishies" and are definitely on my favorite things list, floating across the sky and how they will land somewhere and something will grow. It got me to thinking about how when I put my loving thoughts out into the universe you never know what good or loving things will grow from them. And even when I extend those same thoughts for myself how much better I flourish and feel about each present moment I am in. So today I send the seeds of, PEACE, LOVE and JOY to grow and spread upon all those in need. Take what you like and spread the rest!

Friday, September 9, 2016

The Roller Coaster Ride...

Roller coasters are on my "least favorite things" list, but that is what my life is right now and I am trying to figure out how to "enjoy the ride" with the least resistance. I felt better yesterday, but today I let one little potential setback throw me on the downward spiral and I don't want to go there. If this is my life right now then I have to go with all the ups and downs with grace, patience and love for myself that I can muster. Its hard trusting the outcome, even when you have a plan, things shift, change and that doesn't always mean for the worse. I can expect more then I could have ever imagined for myself and my children and I may have to take a different route and head a different direction. And for those who know me well, know driving and going places unknown is on the top of my "least favorite list!" So this roller coaster ride is quit the challenge for me.