Thursday, November 15, 2012

Growth...

The greatest gift you can ever give another person is your own happiness!

When I saw this photo it made me think about when a seed is planted, you never know if it will germanate and become something magnicent or not. But you do it anyway! As I am continue to work on "being kind" to myself, I'm hoping that the seed I'm planting will grow and provide a stronger foundation of strength and love for myself. I'm finding the more present I am in the moment the easier it is to pause, take a breath and remember ~ to love myself ~ unconditonally...

Friday, November 9, 2012

Deep Questioning

A sign of a good question is that the questioner is more alive for having asked it.

I'm trying to ask the good questions of myself. What is it my heart and soul are beckoning me to do? What is it that brings the most joy each day? How can I better serve the world? Was I kind and loving to myself today? Have I loved, laughed, and lived fully in this present moment?

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Deep Speaking

"Speaking deeply has something to do with letting things pass through our heart as they are, the way ink is pressed through silk to imprint a lasting design that we can wear."

I'm trying to think or pause before I speak, but talking with someone or in a group I find it hard not to just spill words without giving them second thought . Then I go home with time to reflect and am left with regret about some of what I felt the need to say that may not have been necessary. It's about progress not perfection. When awareness is present I am able to pause and speak deeply.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Deep Listening

"We can always begin by allowing ourselves to sink into the depth of whatever moment we are in. For depth is ever-present. We don't have to travel to find depth. We simply have to relax our minds onto the ground of where we are, the way roots unravel in the earth after a long, soaking rain."

Deep listening is something I've been working on for a while now. But I had it backwards... I've been trying to deeply listen to others, and not to myself. Somehow it seemed easier to listen to another. There isn't the wondering if what I'm hearing is something I have the courage to do, because it's your story not mine. But since committing to love and honor myself, this is something I must do ~ for me! To love, honor and deeply listen to all parts of myself, even when what I hear, seems frightening. 

Monday, November 5, 2012

Writing...

 Goals like writing a novel don’t die on their own. We suffocate them with our excuses.

I came across this line in a magazine about writing. How true this is for me!!!! I should write a book called "Endless Excuses" and dedicate it to myself. But keeping with the theme of being kinder to myself, I will pat myself on the back for writing more diligently on my blog. At least I'm writing and thinking about writing and that's a "good thing". Something I can celebrate about myself and not look at what I think I'm NOT doing. I've been enjoying my time everyday, pondering what to say here in this present moment and in this musing space. So until tomorrow ~ Enjoy what makes you happy!

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Time Change...

It's that time again ~ seasons change ~ darkness arrives sooner then before.
I've been through 52 years of season changes, and it still takes me awhile to adjust.
The darkness use to be something I dreaded, but now I look forward to the barren tree's and the chance to do some internal and external hibernation.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Death...


Death has taken another friend...

My thoughts to ponder during this time of grief...
Death is a great teacher. You have to be willing to look at what it would be like if death was staring you in the face. Let this knowledge help you to live every moment of your life fully, because every moment matters. What is it inside of us that is so afraid that it keeps us from just enjoying life? Be willing to be fully present without being afraid of what will happen in the next moment. Life is not something to waste. It's truly precious. That's why death is such a great teacher. Death is your friend!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Listening...


Today I listened to a feeling ~ and contacted someone I'd been thinking about. I don't the reason they had been on my mind but I just wanted to not question the feeling and do it. Can't say after I talked with them that I know anymore about "why", but it doesn't really matter. It felt good to just "go with the feeling"! Somethings in life "just are"~No great cosmic, deep meaning to them and if it does I will be open to hear what it's saying to me. It's a relief not to over analyze things and allow it to flow in and out like the river, where ever it needs to go.

Monday, October 29, 2012

To Honor and Love...

Sounds like a wedding...
But I'm promising myself this statement ~ to honor and love myself...

To honor myself means ~ as I grow, I will not ignore or hide the parts of my soul and humanness that become more present in me and the world. To honor myself means that I make a commitment to keep the truth of who I am visible; that I will not let the truth of my being become invisible again. Or if it does, I will stay devoted to retrieving it!

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Breathing Space...

Trust ~Surrender~Allow


Today I am allowing my mind and body freedom to "just be" and to breath into this space, to embrace the beauty around me: my children, my home where love flows freely, the change in seasons and the unknown that has become my constant companion

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Huge Happiness...

Last night I was watching an interview and something they said stuck a chord with me. They said " I have a huge priority to be happy." I thought, thanks for the reminder ~ to be happy. About twenty five years ago I use to have a license plate on my car that read "be happy." I still have it and I think I'll get it out and put it in a place to remind myself that I too have a HUGE priority to be happy!!!

Friday, October 26, 2012

Starting Over...

Today I woke up and knew I was feeling a bit off, but I thought I would go run a couple of errands anyway. After attempting to accomplish those things, I realize I had not brought with me what I needed to carry out the errands. So I decided to be kind and not beat myself up for what felt like wasted time and to just go home and "start over". And to see it through the eyes of gratitude would be to say, it wasn't far from home so I really didn't lose that much other then a little effort to get ready.  My list of "to do's" is long so I will just pick another item to accomplish and walk away in peace knowing I was kind to myself today ~ and that's a GOOD thing!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Mean Girl...


Yes... that would be me! A mean girl - to myself. I have noticed when I self-talk to myself I am really not a nice person. I certainly would never say the things I say to myself when I forget something, misplaced something, make choices that in hindsight are not my shining moments, to anther person. But because it's me, myself and I, I think it's okay to not say encouraging and loving things to myself. With awareness comes change and right now I am not happy with the way I'm treating "me", so I am raising my consciousness and looking for change! It feels better already...

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Playing...


I have a friend from high school that calls me once or twice a year and one of the questions they always ask me is, " what have you done for fun ". Well if they called today I would tell them I've been playing in my kitchen all weekend.  On Saturday I made GF/DF banana bread, homemade apple pie, fresh pesto from my garden, granola cereal, GF/DF choc. chip, and my own laundry detergent. Sunday I strained out all my herbal oils and tinctures that a dear friend and I are working together on. Somewhere in there I made our usual "biscuits for breakfast" for Saturday and "syrupy something for Sunday breakfast and a couple of dinners. Whew!!!

Oh - but it was fun!

Friday, August 3, 2012

Death in the present moment...


A dear friend passed away yesterday. He had been sick for quite awhile but that never makes the passing easier. My first thought was "oh I wish I would have..." but then I thought about all the times I'd been there for him, the time he and is wife opened their home for my son and I to live and the really nice lunch we had together not long ago. That is how I want to remember his presences in my life. I want to celebrate the good and find comfort in the moments that he circled planet earth.

You will me missed - Doug Boone.. thanks for lunch : )

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

It's Clear...


It became clear to me today after some quiet time and conversation with a friend yesterday that it's okay to not know. My journey from safe and "the known" is moving to the unknown and with awareness and shining a little light on it, it's not so scary. I put pressure on myself to think I should have all the answers  because it will make me and those around me more comfortable . As fear was setting in, my reflex thought is to make it go away and/or fix it somehow. But today I am resting in the "present moment" with the unknown and will let it sit beside me and maybe one day soon we will become very good friends.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

New eyes...


Words I read in a book today (about descriptive writing) said "the problem with eyes is that we get used to having them.
Case in point: Genn built a big fort, taking up my whole living room and when I got up this morning she had taken it all done, but did I notice that? NO... my eyes had gotten use to my surrounding and I couldn't see what was right in front of me.
More words from the book: " the beholders eye, requires attention. If we look closely enough and stay in the moment long enough, we may be granted new eyes.

A good reminder for today - when in the present moment long enough - I see with new eyes!

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Stuff...


As I was walking into the Target Store today I noticed a few people walking out with big plastic bins. Now I think the bins serve great purposes but my first thought was " oh I have quite a few empty bins in my garage so that must mean I have less STUFF then I use too because they were all full at one time" and to me that is a good feeling. I am not a great collector or things but I do have "my stuff" that is taking up more room then it needs too. Like my HUGE pile of scrap material. It is taking up (and then some) a very big book shelf in my room. I have tapered it down ( I know it would be hard to believe if you saw it) and gotten myself to throw out piles - but the mountain remains. My goal is to make things out of the scraps but I hope that if there comes a point when I need to let go - I can. So in this present moment I am celebrating my empty bins and piles that I WAS able to throw out.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Pickles...




I made sweet pickles for the first time this week. It was SO much fun to take cucumbers from my garden and transform them. I love looking at them in the jars and because they are canned they will last until I need them, so when the cucumber season is over I will still have pickles to eat. My next attempt is to try dill pickles.
I'm the kind of person that needs a little help and support when I'm starting something new. After having done it, it seems really easy but not having ever experienced it, I felt intimidated. I am proud of myself for asking for help and it was really fun to do it with someone else. Even other things in life that aren't always intimidating it just is fun to do it with friends.
Thank you for being a friend...

Monday, July 9, 2012

Others Stuff...


In the past couple of weeks as I've been writing down my gratitude for the day it gives me time to pause. When I look around my life and see all the things people have given me or I've acquired from someone I am left amazed.  It's all a combination of others life's intertwined with mine. I love no matter where I look I can smile and remember the person who was attached to whatever it is and it's like a quilt that has been sewn together from random things - all mismatched and I LOVE it!

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Mother Natures Resources...


A few years ago my mother because of health issues had to move from where she was living to a high rise for the elderly to be closer to my sister "just in case".  When she moved she gave me three used trash cans that were containers to catch rain water ( I used them for rain water too). So this morning as my trash barrels were full from our generous rain the other night I watered my garden and plants around the yard. I love using mother natures resources!!! I also am ( with the help of a dear friend ) making a collection of herbs (some local some not) to use for my family. Nature has so much to offer... in this present moment I am grateful!

Monday, July 2, 2012

Thanks - Giving


Thanksgiving has always been my favorite holiday.  It doesn't come with a lot of advertising and consumerism. It's a day to be mindful of all the things to be grateful for.
Most days I am very grateful for so many things but I've started ( again) writing them down. It's interesting to see the list. At the end of the day I can't help but say "WOW" at all the things in my life there are to be thankful for. It's different to actually see it in black and white then to just randomly think of them during the day. I just like the work "thanks - giving", gives much to ponder.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

A lesson...


I am working on being more of an observer in my world, to that which is happening around me. It helps me to be free of judgement for myself as well as others.
So the other day I observed in a situation that I was in how if you want something in life you must ASK! Doesn't always guarantee you will get it, but being wishy washy about the details leaves great interpretation for others.  Then that leaves you to rethink your wants and find clarity and then your can ask again or if the opportunity is gone you have learned the lesson for future desires.
As I was thinking about why I'm not always exact about the details was because the doubt creeps in and my thought is not "YES, this is what I want", it is more like "That would be nice". Fear holds my clarity and it's for me to claim it back, state my wants and then let go of the outcome. Sounds so simple... And it can be - when I let it!

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Think to much...


The important thing is not to think much, but to love much;
and so, do that which best stirs you to love more.
Saint Teresa of Avila

I came across this quote and it spoke to me today. My tendency is to over think things. I like what is said - think less and love more! And then I thought what would I do today that best stirs me to love more? I'm not sure what it is, but as I ponder I will see how the day unfolds and let love lead me.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Nature vs Hotel

On a recent trip to Roanoke Virginia with a friend we stayed overnight at a very nice Hotel. I hadn't stayed in a hotel in quit a while and realized that how much I prefer staying out in nature (camper / tent). Now I realize that when the temperature is very hot or very cold I would find myself being grateful for the indoor shelter but generally speaking nature is what I like. Some people are hotel people and some like me are not.  Just an observation. I like learning about myself and what kind of things tickle my fancy.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

A yard transformed...


As I was working in my backyard today I felt the similarities...
My front yard is more neighbor friendly and has a slightly different look then my backyard. The grass is cut and trimmed, the trees are kept up, the flowers are in their proper place for viewing and it looks pretty much like everyone's else's. My backyard is more spontaneous and whimsical. It's an ongoing project that is added to and taken away as I feel and it is not visible for all to see. So as I was working I felt like the front yard was my physical outside body - one that is perceived slightly different than what is on my insides. My inside ( my heart and soul ) is a mix of surprise with a little trust and surrender.  My yard is evolving and changing like I am. Anytime I need a little "pick me up - of spirit" I just need to step out into natures wonder and I remember...


Thursday, April 19, 2012

Another - good quote...


"There is no skill better to acquire than to be conscious of the present moment, be willing to let go of everything you've ever learned and jump into a spontaneous, weird and unknown new life. All the planning in the world can never prepare you for the time when you must leap into the unknown all by yourself. Welcome to that moment."

- Jackson Kiddard, author & polymath.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

The Wheel...


You know the old saying " The squeaky wheel gets the grease", well that is what is on my mind.
Of my three children, two still live at home with me. One is quiet, keeps to themselves and doesn't ask for much, the other one is a social butterfly and likes to go places, shop and is just more interactive. So I find myself feeling like I'm slighting the other because I find my attention and energy spent on other things and people. I have to put it on my "to do" list to plan something with my one child and it helps me be more conscious of wanting to save some of my time for them as well. Sometimes the offer of an activity or time is not wanted and that is okay too, but I just want to make sure that the gesture is offered. But with that said I do feel that my children know I am ALWAYS available (day or night) and they are loved.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

A Good Quote...


"It is very easy to be tricked by the circumstances of the present moment. But, dear seeker, remember that everything changes! Life is an exercise not in adding, but in constantly letting go of what you know and who you think you are and to have the courage to become brand new. When we fixate on the past, we welcome it into our present moment, which keeps the past alive. When you give up the fight

THAT is when you'll take flight!"

- Jackson Kiddard, author & polymath.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Inspiration...

See... it's never to late to accomplish-anything!!!


Man Who Learned to Read at 91, Writes a Book at 98


For 91 years, James Henry, a lifelong fisherman, did not know how to read and write and carried the shame of not being able to order from a menu.

It had been his life's ambition to read.

Now 98, the Connecticut captain has achieved that, and more, penning a memoir of short stories about his life at sea.

After nearly a year of tutoring, the captain from Mystic began writing stories by hand on a yellow legal pad.

From those short stories, the memoir "A Fisherman's Language" was born.



Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Helpful words...


Others words seem to express just what I need to hear sometimes and I find that is enough to allow words that are not mine to speak what my heart needs...




"Remain calm, all is within reach; all you have to do is show up everyday, stay true to your path and you will surely find the treasure you seek."

Jackson Kiddard


When we expose ourselves, when we show ourselves, when we let our true selves been seen, we set ourselves free. And we also set others free to be their true, authentic, broken yet perfect selves.

What we crave is connection, to be valued, to be cherished and to have the certainty that we are enough to be loved.


The truth of who we are and how we feel is available in any moment. And by telling that truth, we set ourselves free and begin to allow others to do so as well.


Life loves us and supports us. And when we accept that, we can let go and let Life live us, perfectly, wherever we are at.


Friday, March 9, 2012

Happy Birthday...


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This picture pretty much sums up my birthday...


It was just AWESOME!

Friday, March 2, 2012

What I know for sure today...


It is never to late to really be here.
It is never to last to enjoy the moment.
It is never to late to love and be loved.
It is never to late to know the truth.

IT IS NEVER TO LATE...

Sunday, February 19, 2012

brick and mortar...


Twenty years ago when I first moved to the house I still live in, we would pass a dairy farm with its cow smells and green pastures and drive in a round-a-bout way to arrive home. The stars would shine bright in the darkness and the crickets chirp could be heard.
A lot has changed, buildings are all around, streets have grown wider, parking lots have take over natures habitat and you have to drive out into the remote area to even see the long ago bright stars.
Lately I am reminded of the nature that hangs on in spite of the ever growing brick and mortar. A lone woodpecker who wakes me with its "rat-a-tat-tat" on a near by tree keeps me reminded of the animals and wildlife that adapt and refuse to be taken over by man. It's a nice sound to hear first thing in the morning before I start my day. Before I awake and see the cars racing by and the building that glare at me across the street. It helps me center myself, not in the hustle and bustle of everyday but in the quiet and peacefulness that only nature can provide.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

A Sad Heart...


Divorce and separation aren't always a "bad" thing, but I always find it saddens my heart just a little when I hear of others going through it. I was listening to a friend last night share her journey with this issue and one of my neighbors (that I am not very close to) but are now going their separate ways. Not sure if it's because I've been there, done that and it strikes a cord with me and I can relate - I don't know. I just know when I encounter it, my heart is sad and always a little surprised that once again it is happening to someone. In someways I don't want to feel any other way. I don't want it to be so expected and normal that it doesn't faze me at all. So for all those I know and those I don't that are going through this situation - I will be thinking of you today.

A friend told me once: that is was better to live for awhile uncomfortable in the truth then comfortable in a lie. I Pick TRUTH...

Thursday, February 2, 2012

It's never to late...


Be Inspired...


Working dreams won’t get you rich. But amazing things happen when you take risks.

In summer of ’98, I sold my drum kit for gas money and convinced my college roommate to drive me from Ithaca to San Diego. All I kept was a pack of Field Notes and my Beach Boys records. “Wouldn’t It Be Nice” was playing and it was at that moment that I decided to invest in myself. I had thirty bucks, a landline, and a ton of motivation.

I have never written a business plan, yet I have three businesses that I’ve been running for over a decade now. I can’t read a lick of sheet music, yet I’ve toured the world managing bands. You wouldn’t want me to adjust your camera’s F-stop, yet I’ve worked on three films and produced a web series.

I don’t know anything about book publishing, so naturally, I wrote and self-published a book.

I’ve never been overly great at drawing, but I’ve been an art director on projects for Zappos, MTV, and TOMS. I don’t drive a Ford, but I’m continually hired to help promote their vehicles.

I grew up attending public schools and battled with reading comprehension, yet now I’m invited to lecture at Ivy Leagues.

I don’t own cable television, but I’ve licensed music to Californication, Nip/Tuck, CSI, and Grey’s Anatomy. CSS, HTML, and Java mean nothing to me, yet I’m preparing to launch an iPhone app.

Life changes the minute you start doing what you love. And guess what—it’s never too late to get started.


Dave Brown lives in Brooklyn, NY. By day, he’s Etsy’s social media specialist and by night, a blogger, author, record label owner and creative consultant. Dave’s a huge fan of ice-hockey, chicken teriyaki, and the film Rushmore. Anyone interested in making this world more awesome is someone Dave likes to meet and collaborate with. He coined the motto, “Love your work. Work your love.”

Saturday, January 28, 2012

A Yearning to Write...


It started with a journal entry:

I pursued the only dream I ever wanted which was to marry and have children. Children had been my passion since I was a teen. During high school I worked in a social service owned day care (which I did not know at the time, but knowledge that would not have made a difference in my decision). These children where not your average “ my child needs a little playtime”, no these children came cold, hungry and in need of more then just interaction. I wrapped them in a blanket when their bodies were brought in blue, I bathed them in the bathroom sink when the need was great, stories were read, games brought laughter, food offered them nourishment and I loved them without judgment.

I graduated from high school and worked in the day care until I met my first husband at age 21 and we had a son. After our son was born it became very clear that this was not something my husband wanted. Looking back, I don't think he even knew a child was something he was not ready for. This is the moment in my life that brought the art of journaling to me. Most of my writing was frustration, confusion in my inability to figure out what felt so wrong. I filled pages and pages of journals, with no other answer but to end the marriage where my child was not welcome. I went back to school and recieved a Associate Degree in Graphic Arts. I knew I wanted something in the “Arts” and the counselors suggested I try Graphic Arts to be able to make a living – other wise I would be just another “starving” artist. Writing had not offered a nudge or spark of interest yet.

I later married again, all the while still writing what my heart felt, filling the empty space. These words brought a stirring, a growing interest and I started taking writing classes. Mostly in fiction but later tried my hand at non-fiction. I fell in love, and now have a desire for both fiction and non-fiction. Life gave me two more beautiful children and my interest for writing never wavered or lost it's desire to speak. But this marriage was also a learning experience. It taught me about myself and what I deserve and what I am worth, bringing this marriage to an end as well.

I have had many life experiences, all which contribute to the full and richness of my pursuit of writing. At this stage I am looking to reach farther then my own mind, to play big and allow others to see the possibilities, and I can only do that, if I allow myself to do the same. I am a student of life and will never stop learning and sharing what I feel will send ripples out into the world. My compassion is deep and my yearning great. Since I was a young child, I have been seeking and searching. Living amongst those around me, listening to their words, watching their actions, I always felt I was on the wrong page of the book that they were reading from. Finally finding the words that belong on my page, I want to honor that voice within. I have spent fifty-one years collecting data and now my goal is to use it for the greater good, and to keep expanding my view and exploring them from different angles.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Taming the FEAR...


The only thing we have to fear is fear itself... --Franklin D. Rossevelt

(One ) definition of tame is : make wild and frightening people, animals or things calm and gentle.

I find myself running into fear on a moment by moment basis. It twists my thoughts and distorts my view but I have to "tame"the fear or it will devour me. I do not want to scare it or wish it didn't exist, I only want to tame it - allow it's presents in my life but let it know who is in charge. I am in charge - of my life, my thoughts, my desires, my dreams. It is an ongoing battle but one I have to be present for in each moment because it has a way of sneaking up and surprises me when I least expect it and I have to be ready to challenge its statements. It tells me give up, your to old, etc. and each time I have to ask - is it true? If the answer is no then I replace it with a true statement. But fear is meant to alert us and sometimes that answer to the statement is yes and I then walk away or try a different choice.

Friday, January 20, 2012

Living on the Edge...


I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things that you can't see from the center.

Kurt Vonnegut

Living on the edge is not something that is even remotely within my comfort zone, but I would like it to be a more comfortable feeling ( be careful what you wish for ) . I just love that quote because it is so true - you can see so much more when your not standing safely in the center. If I had to pick one thing I would call "living on the edge" for me, it would be driving. Every time I drive it's a challenge, but it has allowed me to see so much more then staying closed inside and not venturing out. And just "trusting the universe" is pretty close to the edge for me too. I am someone who likes to have things organized and scheduled - I like knowing! So the quote is a good reminder that clinging to close to "safe" leaves no room to see all the beauty that the world has to offer and all that I am capable of offering to the world.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Friendship Concentrate...


Having come back from a wonderful fun filled loving weekend with many of my friends that I see about once a week, the phrase came to me "friendship concentrate". Spending time all weekend - day and most of the night I just thought this is like have my friends in a concentrated way. And I have to say~ I LIKED IT!!!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Mantra...


Say it... Shout it... Believe it... "I'm going to make it happen".

This is my mantra for the year 2012, combined with "letting go" of the results. It's a journey not a destination...

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

It's all good...


You don't have to justify the good that flows to you... it is a given.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Still resting...

Yes, today I am still trying to rest. You see I used the word "trying". It is something I want to become more comfortable with - resting when my body speaks. I not only want to hear what my heart is speaking but I want to listen to my body too. I am working on living a more conscious life, which for me means listening more deeply to myself, eating more consciously, leading me to a more plant based diet and making more conscious choices with everything I do. For me it's not something I have been able to just decide and then it always feels that way, it seems it's an awareness I need to wake up with each day and then in that present moment I can make a conscious choice over and over again in each moment . Today I am choosing to rest because my body speaks...

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Rest...

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I feel like I'm coming down with a cold and I'm doing everything I know to do to help prevent it or cut it short - EXCEPT rest! That is SO hard for me. My to-do list is endless and it's hard to not use every moment I have available to tackle something on my list. But I KNOW that rest is one of the most important things I can do. And I have to believe that what doesn't get done, there will be time or a realization that it's just not that important. So I am granting myself permission to rest not only my body but my mind too. It is not very restful if my mind does not stop it's constant swirling. I will practice staying in the present moment and finding rest.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

No rules...


Our Christmas tree is still up and I'm still enjoying the way the lights twinkling at night and all the decorations full of memories that hang on the tree. We will probable take it down this weekend but it's nice to know in life there are no rules for how long you "should" keep your tree up or how you "should" do any of your holiday traditions. It's about what feels good and right for your family. And right now our tree brings up JOY!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Reality...

On New Year's day I declared this would be the year I believe in ME! Oh okay with that said I am having to live that statement everyday. Today I am wavering - one minute I think I will never amount to anything and the next I believe without a doubt. My stomach is in a knot. I did my yoga and meditating, and it helped but I'm already back to "oh no, can I do this?". I keep trying to stop myself from going to far down that thought pattern, because I know it only snowballs into a very dark place. One of my goals each day is to do things differently because "they" say the definition of insanity is "doing the same thing over and expecting different results". So here I go...

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Just BE...


"If you want to be happy, be."

Leo Tolstoy

Monday, January 2, 2012

Friendship...


My wonderful friendships are like rain that has slowly over time, softening my barren existence. Underneath there, lay waiting, a desire, a yearning for more. New life has started to grow and blossom and with each rainfall (gathering of friends) I feel my roots growing deeper, helping me stand strong and providing shelter and safety when weathering the storms. The sun does not always shine and when left in the dark, I have a "knowing" that I am cared for and loved and can wait until the light returns to shine again.
I am ever so grateful on this new day, in this new year, in this present moment for my friendships both old and new. I can feel the growth, the new life, the softening and I THANK YOU...

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Present Moment Resolutions...


Forget about those New Years resolutions in which you decide on the first day of January how you will be conducting your life for the next twelve months. Instead set up a day-to-day goals for yourself, and then resolve to living with present moment awareness for the rest of your life. When you get good at living your present moment one day at a time, you'll see yourself changing right before your own surprised eyes. Remember, anyone can do anything for just one day, so tune out the sentences that keep you locked into your old self-defeating ways and begin to enjoy each day of your bright new year.

Words borrowed from: Wayne Dyer