Lesson...

"People may not tell you how they feel about you but they always show you. Pay attention."

One lesson I've learned in life that I share with my children is " When someone shows you who they are, believe them." When I use to take writing classes, one phrase that was always said about writing fiction was, "show don't tell." 

Size...

"Dreams come a size too big, so we can grow into them."

I found this quote and thought it was cute and true. Never thought of it that way! It's nice to know my dreams are bigger then I could imagine and given space and time I can actually grow into them. Also nice to know that something doesn't have to fit just right the first time I imagine it and over time it will fit like a glove.

Fly...

"I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on earth. Then I ask myself the same question."

Harun Yahya

This is a good question to ponder... Why do I choose to stay stuck, when I could do anything on earth I wanted? FEAR... my usual answer. But now what? Fear is the answer what is the solution? Putting one foot in-front of the other and doing it anyway!

Answer...

"I am the answer someone has been looking for."

As I was going through "stuff" today, trying to decide what to keep and what to get rid of, I came across this quote a friend shared with me one time. I'm not sure if it is her original quote or not, but it was just what I needed. I have found myself stuck in a message I don't even know I'm listening to, until something triggers it, like teaching a class about all the things I'm passionate about, and that old tape says, " nobody wants to hear what you have to say." With awareness comes change, and even though I've been aware of this tape before I'm hoping to now replace it with, " I am the answer someone has been looking for!"

Spontaneous...

As a person who is an awesome planner, and likes to prepare for things, I find it can be a disruption sometimes when spontaneity knocks on my door. But instead of thinking what a bad person I am because I struggled with a spontaneous moment, I can look at it as something I need to work on more and even incorporate more into my life. I will have to ponder that and figure out how to not "plan" my next spontaneous present moment!!

Good News...

http://www.goodnewsnetwork.org/inspired/individuals/sc-town-builds-house-for-homeless-outcast.html

I've mentioned this website before but it's worth mentioning again. I woke this morning to see all this wonderful good news in my email. What a great way to start the day. Sometimes I get caught up in the worlds bad news or my own life drama that it's awesome to start my day with GOOD NEWS.

Choose...

"It doesn't matter what you didn't accomplish. It doesn't matter that you haven't looked at your goal for over a month or abandoned it like a piece of fruit in the back of the refrigerator and it has now grown spores. Choose again today."

Tama J. Kieves

Reading this makes me feel a little better. Today I was overwhelmed with my to-do list and all the different areas in my life I'm trying to accomplish things in. When I feel like this. it reminds me of a book called "Bird by Bird" by Anne Lamont ( I think the title came from Anne's brother had a report to do on birds and didn't know where to start and she said to him, bird by bird. You can probable google the exact story). I can accomplish each task, one at a time and love myself for each thing done and forgive myself for those I abandoned. I can choose again today.

Somedays...

"Be yourself, everyone else is already taken."

"Never put the key to your happiness in somebody else's pocket."

Kushandwizdom

"Children are not a distraction from more important work. They are the most important work"

John Trainer M.D.

"The hardest part about letting go is finally realizing that there wasn't much left to hold on to."

Somedays I just need a few good quotes to carry me though!

Fiction...

I finally had some time to finish a fiction book I was reading called "When Mockingbirds Sing" by Billy Coffey. I picked it up at the library and really enjoyed it. When I read books, I love to pick out the lines that say so much and as a writer myself, I love to devour the delicious lines that add so much yummy to the book. Here are a couple of the lines I loved...

"He preferred the deep beneath the words where only truth dwelt." (pg.211)

"Mabel was in a place where there's just now." (pg. 222)

"Believe in the maybe." (pg. 219)

Softly...

Sometimes when I'm looking for answers or at least a "knowing" of what seems right at the moment, I have to retreat and withdraw from the world even when I'm in it. After having done that for a week, my answer come softly and it seemed more about letting go of my resistance to an idea of the way "I thought" something should be and letting things flow in a new direction. 

Ocean...

The ocean waves offers peace and time for contemplation. Time to listen to mother nature as she speaks her soft whisper in the wind.

My Kitchen...

Today I was given a gift to pick out a few kitchen items for my birthday last week and it was so exciting! I love to play in my kitchen and make homemade "love." Can't wait to get home and play!!!

Making Memories...

Each present moment is filled with memories. Today I filled my day with friends, love and laughter - memories to last a life time!

A Day...

What a beautiful day! I want to stay in each present moment and ENJOY!

Dream...

I had a dream last night about a former family member that I was close to, that passed away about eleven years ago. I dreamed that they came back to life and I was stunned, but I saw them right in front of me and it seemed real but I kept doubting and crying because it just couldn't be. I've never had a dream that felt so real. I woke up and didn't want to wake up. I wanted that person to be there and for this not to be a dream. Their presence was with me and so strong.

Cookie...

"Today me will live in the moment unless it's unpleasant in which case me will eat a cookie."

Cookie Monster

I think I will call it a day and go eat a cookie... yum yum yum yum yum!

P.S.

p.s. there's hope

This is what I need right now. I feel like I'm having a crisis of the heart and feeling very lost. I remember years and years ago when people were dying in my life one after the other and I felt this same feeling... LOST. Almost numb to the world around me, unsure where I belong in my space or what any of it means. But... there's hope!

Today...

What I saw and heard today in my present moments...

Hawk's flying

Owls hooting

The woodpeckers ratta tat tat

Turtles sunbathing

Squirrels scampering

Birds tweeting

Dog's barking

Cat's meowing

Flowers blooming

Green grass growing

Sun shining

Leaves crunching

Tree's budding

Pass...

I had a hard day yesterday. I'm not sure why, but I felt like I just wanted to cry all day and crawl right out of my skin. I felt alone, and that everyone I know was sick and tired of me. All irrational thoughts I'm sure and today I'm hoping as I allow it to continue to flow through it will leave as easily as it come. And if it has something to teach me that I will be open to hearing what I need to know. But if it continues I will try to be kind to myself and know "this too shall pass."

Occasions...

I realized today after my birthday passed yesterday that years ago I needed occasions to be kind to myself. And this year on my birthday I had to work, but that was okay because I didn't need that special occasion to find a reason to do nice things for myself. I am learning in each passing moment to love and do sweet things for myself ~ just because!

Happy...

Happy Birthday to ME...

Safety Net...

As I was dog walking yesterday, I got to thinking a lot about the "unknown." As much as my life feels like I'm walking into the unknown right now, when I think about it deeper, each day is really a big unknown. I can make goals, write lists, plan ahead, but each present moment does not come with a guarantee that you will have another. Anything can happen in any given moment... So if I think I'm holding on to a safety net, I'm kidding myself. I walk beside the unknown everyday whether I am aware or not.

Peace...

"Do you want to be right or do you want peace?"

Yesterday was one of those days... do I want to be right or do I want peace? In the end when it's all said and done I may end up with both but I'm almost at the finish line and I'm not willing to sacrifice mine and my children's peace of mind to win. I know that "it's" not all up to me. The universe will offer me things I never dreamed possible. I want to be open and receptive...

Schedule...

When my kids where little they use to watch Winnie The Pooh all the time. I could relate to all the characters at one time or another, but right now I'm feeling like "rabbit" when he use to run around saying how he had to stay on schedule. It seems like I'm trying to pack so much into each day to get stuff done. Then I'm reminded of Pooh and how he loved each present moment... I take a deep breath and move on.

Laugh...

"At what age is it appropriate to tell my dog he is adopted?

Sometimes I take myself to serious and need a laugh. I thought this joke was pretty funny! I have to remind myself to lighten up, even in the midst of my life.

Anything...

"When you do what you fear most, then you can do anything."

Stephen Richards

I'm trying to believe that's true. Most days it seems like everything I'm doing is fearful and somedays are not. I will cling to the present moment because I know it holds just what I need to see. If I look no further then the fear is managable.

My Body...

My body is telling me to slow down. I'm not feeling good and even though I have to work today, there are things I can do to take care of myself. I'm taking herbs, vitamins and teas to boost what my body is lacking. And I will rest as much as I can when I get home and on the days following when it's possible.  When my body speaks I'm learning to listen.

Security...

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."

Alan Cohen

A friend posted this quote for me today... I love quotes! I know in each line there is truth, but when I'm in the midst of the false security it feels real. I love the part of the line, " for in movement there is life," it reminds me of a river and how it flows so effortlessly, flowing through each day, each season, over each obstacle. Clinging to what I know is something I can see, moving towards the unknown are all the things I can't see and for me it's a process of learning to find that adventure and excitement  even in the dark, for "in change there is power."