F.E.A.R.

F.E.A.R. ~ False Evidence Appearing Real

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/suza-scalora/miracles_b_1544393.html

An excerpt from the article:

"We've all experienced the strength of negative thoughts. If we are not aware in the present moment they can quickly sneak up on us and drag us down the rabbit hole of disconnection, despair and depression.

Near the end of Lama Tenzin's visit he was asked if he believed global peace would one day become a reality. After a long pause he said, "The enemy is within."

He then pointed out: Love exists within each of us, as does the enemy.

How often do we believe the enemy is someone or something outside ourselves?

So... if the enemy is within, then what exactly is this villainous darkness lurking inside all of us? Fear. False Evidence Appearing Real.

Fear is the consummate shape-shifter, disguising itself in many forms: anxiety, stress, worry, overwhelm, blame, judgment, gossip, anger, hate, resentment, and criticism."

Today I will hold tight to remember FEAR is False Evidence Appearing Real as my children search for answers to a situation that affects them deeply, and right now I have NO clear answer to offer. 

I Am Enough...

"We can only be who we are and at some point, that has to be good enough."

Today my mantra is "I am enough." And as I continue to evolve and change with each present moment, that doesn't change my "knowing" that right now ~ "I am enough."

Brave...

"With Brave Wings She Flies"

And so it is... with brave wings I can fly. I can allow my life to soar above anything I could ever imagine myself. And land in a place of beauty and abundance. Because...

with brave wings I can fly!

Packed Full...

In my life there are people who have giving me gifts that a simple "thank you" doesn't seem to be enough. But my hope is that when they hear these words, they will know, they're "packed full" of : gratitude, love, appreciation and more thankfulness then they will ever know.

Two simple words that mean so much ~ THANK YOU!

Wedding...

Well the day has come and gone. Yesterday my son married the women he loves and is happy. My heart is happy for him. It was a joy to celebrate in his love.

Loving you dear son... 

ALWAYS!

Details...

Woke up overwhelmed this morning with thoughts about so many things going on in my life right now. When the scope of everything looks to large it's time to narrow it down and concentrate on the little things. That is where I am grateful and can see the beauty. Today "all is well" and I'm holding on to all that's good in the fine details of my life!

I MUST...

Today I MUST believe that "all is well". I MUST believe that there will be answers to the big mystery that is in my life right now. I MUST believe today that there is a rainbow behind this dark cloud hanging over head. I MUST believe that I am courageous enough to offer my children the path to the other side. I MUST believe that I am strong enough to withstand this storm of unknown.

I MUST BELIEVE!

Dreaming...

"Your dream doesn't have an expiration date. Take a deep breath and try again!"

Reminder to self today...

 ~ just because another day has passed doesn't mean your dreams are fading. There is still time to have a loving relationship, there is still time to continue to write ~ NO EXPIRATION DATE!

 Take a deep breath and keep dreaming...

Outside...

"Sometimes, you need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and who you want to be."

That's what nature does for me... It reminds me of who I am and what I want to continue to be. My son and I went for a walk today on a beautiful trail, took our shoes off and walked in the cool damp grass. Life is good... thank you mother nature for your gentle nudges and constant reminders.

My Six Senses...

I saw a post on someone's blog the other day about their five senses, so I thought it would be an interesting idea to write mine down today and add in the sixth.

Tasting: crunchy granola, beans and rice, toast with peanut butter. water with lemon, bean soup

Hearing: birds singing, tv, roaring cars, children's laughter, clanging dishes

Seeing: grocery store, cars, computers, my backyard, my home, 

Smelling: beans cooking, burritos baking, fresh laundry

Knowing: All is well and I am safe, I am loved

Nature Weaving...

This is one of my favorite pieces of art in my house. It was made at a home school gathering years ago and different people contributed to it during that gathering. I continue to add and weave in and I never get tired of looking at it. It reminds me of friendships and our connectedness to each other and to the great Mother Earth. This picture doesn't do it justice, because the beauty is in the fine details... Just like us!

Food...

I LOVE food, I really do! I love to eat it, taste it, smell it, cook it, shop for it, look at it, read about it, talk about it and share it. The other day my daughter just wanted to get out of the house so we went to a the store to return something and ended up wandering in the food isles for two hours! It was a store I don't shop at much so it was fun to see the new things or just items I didn't realize they had.

Decorations...

I was over at someone's house the other day, pet sitting, and they had halloween decorations all over. It was really cute. Later I thought how "not" like that I am. I've never been a decorate your house ( inside or out) kind of person, but I do enjoy others enthusiasm for the holidays. A big thank you to all, for sharing your joy of the holiday!

Lists...

I'm a list person, plain and simple. No matter how many electronical devices there are for making list and keep track of things, I just need my scrap of paper and I'm good ( of course if I loose it I'm completely lost!) It's the little things you realize about yourself that you finally come to accept. I'm not sure if I will every embrace the "new age" way of writing things down, but that's okay. It's all GOOD!

Enjoy...

"Life is available only in the present moment."

Thich Nhat Hanh

Enjoy and be happy ~ good night all!

Authentic Me...

The more I supplement what my body needs from "Mother Nature" the more authentic I feel. It's hard to explain but it's like when I walk in the woods, there is something there that I connect with and feels like "me." I remember trying different exercises over the course of my life and one time I tried yoga. It brought me that same connection and feeling " it's me.". Being a mother has ALWAYS brought me a connection that felt right, and my hope is, in this new stage of my life, I will continue to stay in tune with my mind,body,spirit and follow what makes me feels right, and "Authentically me!

Forgiveness...

"The answer to resistance is always forgiveness. Don't beat yourself up for what you didn't do yesterday or for the past three weeks or twenty seven years. Don't get lost in analyzing, rhapsodizing, or building monuments to your failure. Start now! Choose now! Enter the wondrous healing space of the only moment there is, this present moment."

I need to read this each and everyday to remind myself "it's never to late" and beating myself up for what feels like lost years, solves NOTHING! I can ~ Choose Now ~ this present moment!

Comfort Zone...

"Life begins at the end of your comfort zone."

I've heard this quote so many times, but for me it pays to repeat it over and over again! I want SO much to get further in my life and venture out, but I know staying comfortable is not going to make that happen. What it comes down to for me to live in that space is...

TRUST

SURRENDER

ALLOW

Surrounded...

Today I worked in and around a group of people who where all searching for a better way to care for their body, mind and spirt. 

It was nice...

Pumpkins...

It's that time of year when we go get our pumpkins to carve into a jack-o-lantern. When my children were little it was a tradition to go to http://www.carriganfarms.com/ and go for the hay ride, visit the little petting zoo, drink fresh squeezed apple juice and then run into the field to find the perfect pumpkin. Now... we go to the store and pick out a pretty one! But my oldest son is coming in a few days and will help carve the pumpkins with his brother and sister. Over time somethings change, but still a beautiful present moment it will be.

NOW...

"The reason people find it so hard  to be happy is that they always see...

The past better than it was,

The present worse than it is,

And the future less resolved than it will be."

Marcel Pagnol

This quote brings me back to the present moment ~ that is really all there is ~ right now. I find my mind dwelling on the past or the unknown of the future and all that does is take away from my NOW!

Pause...

"Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy"

When I can pause long enough and look around, breath in the joy, there lays my answers ... in the pause!

Moccasins...

Another memory emerges... Today I say a young girl ( young being 18-20 ish) wearing moccasins while she was working at the store. I told her I loved her shoes and that I use to wear them myself when I was her age. I LOVED them and I was wondering what happened to them, but I think I wore them out. I miss wearing them, and I'm not sure why but I felt some connection with them on.

Butterflies...

Sometimes when I don't know what I'm going to write about, I look through pictures and a memory emerges. This picture reminded me of when my children were young and we sent away for a kit to watch butterflies grow and then release them. It was a fun project and a sweet memory!

Frogs...

I believe there is meaning in events and symbols in my life and when we had tree frogs show up by my door after living in my house for 22 years. I looked it up...

• Symbolic Meaning of Frogs
  Written by avenefica on October 26th, 2007

  Symbolic meaning of the frog deals with:

  • Creativity
  • Fertility
  • Luck
  • Cleansing
  • Intuition
  • Transformation
    
    

Lives...

"Most of us have 2 lives, the life we live and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands resistance."

Steven Pressfield

My life summed up in one quote...

but~

I'm working through it...

I'm going to make it to that unlived life!!!!!

A Quiet Space...

This looked like the perfect place to have a "quiet space" to just be. 

Blindfolded...

Right now in my life I feel like I am walking around with a blindfold on. It feels like EVERYTHING  is unknown ~ my health, my home, my car, my work, a relationship. Guess it's time to LOVE the unknown and flow with it. Resistance is useless...  Letting go is freeing!

Shoulder...

Somedays you just need a shoulder to rest on... today is one of those days!

Shirt Tag...

Apparently my shirt tag was hanging out today at the store and a kind lady walked up to me and tucked it in. I just found that very personable and special. She didn't think, oh maybe I should just tell her or say it to me before she tucked it in. NO- she just came over and tucked it in. I told her how much I appreciated that and said thank you. Then we both went about our day...

Just goes to show you, you never know when a small act of kindness will brighten someone's day!