Reality...

On New Year's day I declared this would be the year I believe in ME! Oh okay with that said I am having to live that statement everyday. Today I am wavering - one minute I think I will never amount to anything and the next I believe without a doubt. My stomach is in a knot. I did my yoga and meditating, and it helped but I'm already back to "oh no, can I do this?". I keep trying to stop myself from going to far down that thought pattern, because I know it only snowballs into a very dark place. One of my goals each day is to do things differently because "they" say the definition of insanity is "doing the same thing over and expecting different results". So here I go...