Still resting...

Yes, today I am still trying to rest. You see I used the word "trying". It is something I want to become more comfortable with - resting when my body speaks. I not only want to hear what my heart is speaking but I want to listen to my body too. I am working on living a more conscious life, which for me means listening more deeply to myself, eating more consciously, leading me to a more plant based diet and making more conscious choices with everything I do. For me it's not something I have been able to just decide and then it always feels that way, it seems it's an awareness I need to wake up with each day and then in that present moment I can make a conscious choice over and over again in each moment . Today I am choosing to rest because my body speaks...

Rest...

I feel like I'm coming down with a cold and I'm doing everything I know to do to help prevent it or cut it short - EXCEPT rest! That is SO hard for me. My to-do list is endless and it's hard to not use every moment I have available to tackle something on my list. But I KNOW that rest is one of the most important things I can do. And I have to believe that what doesn't get done, there will be time or a realization that it's just not that important. So I am granting myself permission to rest not only my body but my mind too. It is not very restful if my mind does not stop it's constant swirling. I will practice staying in the present moment and finding rest.

No rules...

Our Christmas tree is still up and I'm still enjoying the way the lights twinkling at night and all the decorations full of memories that hang on the tree. We will probable take it down this weekend but it's nice to know in life there are no rules for how long you "should" keep your tree up or how you "should" do any of your holiday traditions. It's about what feels good and right for your family. And right now our tree brings up JOY!

Reality...

On New Year's day I declared this would be the year I believe in ME! Oh okay with that said I am having to live that statement everyday. Today I am wavering - one minute I think I will never amount to anything and the next I believe without a doubt. My stomach is in a knot. I did my yoga and meditating, and it helped but I'm already back to "oh no, can I do this?". I keep trying to stop myself from going to far down that thought pattern, because I know it only snowballs into a very dark place. One of my goals each day is to do things differently because "they" say the definition of insanity is "doing the same thing over and expecting different results". So here I go...

Just BE...

"If you want to be happy, be."

Leo Tolstoy

Friendship...

My wonderful friendships are like rain that has slowly over time, softening my barren existence. Underneath there, lay waiting, a desire, a yearning for more. New life has started to grow and blossom and with each rainfall (gathering of friends) I feel my roots growing deeper, helping me stand strong and providing shelter and safety when weathering the storms. The sun does not always shine and when left in the dark, I have a "knowing" that I am cared for and loved and can wait until the light returns to shine again.

I am ever so grateful on this new day, in this new year, in this present moment for my friendships both old and new. I can feel the growth, the new life, the softening and I THANK YOU...

Present Moment Resolutions...

Forget about those New Years resolutions in which you decide on the first day of January how you will be conducting your life for the next twelve months. Instead set up a day-to-day goals for yourself, and then resolve to living with present moment awareness for the rest of your life. When you get good at living your present moment one day at a time, you'll see yourself changing right before your own surprised eyes. Remember, anyone can do anything for just one day, so tune out the sentences that keep you locked into your old self-defeating ways and begin to enjoy each day of your bright new year.

Words borrowed from: Wayne Dyer