Movie...

Someone gave my daughter a movie to watch called "About Time", so one night I decided to watch it. It has now become one of my favorite movies and one I would have no problem watching again. I won't give you any hints only that it is just a "happy" movie. The celebration of the present moment is the ending theme. I'm so glad I got a chance to watch a movie I probable might never have picked myself. 

Drummer...

"If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away."

Henry David Thoreau

I am trying to change my internal dialogue about myself. I've felt like a "misfit" my whole life. I always felt my thinking was different then those surrounding me growing up and through most of my adult hood. And with that, I took on the message, "something is wrong with me", " I can't seem to see what they see. So my challenge is now to reprogram that voice in my head and figure out how to best serve myself and the universe, with the way I see each present moment. 

Sooth...

My schedule the last couple of weeks has been crazy!!! And trying to write on my blog... I am feeling brain dead. But with the passing of Maya Angelou, I will just take a moment to pause ~ and leave a quote from her to sooth my mind, body and spirit.

"People know themselves much better than you do. That's why it's important to stop expecting them to be something other than who they are."

Dr. Maya Angelou

Joy...

"Joy does not simple happen to us. We have to choose joy and keep choosing it every day."

Henry Drummond

This reminds me of something a friend told me once when he got married. He said commitment is something he has to choose everyday. In my life I have to set my intentions to see my cup half full or half empty. Too choose JOY in each present moment even if it takes me awhile to get there. 

Driver...

I got away for a short time to my sisters, so most of the cousins could participate in "The Color Run" http://thecolorrun.com/ together. But the best part for me, was that my niece came by and drove my daughter and I to her mom's house. Driving is one, if not my least favorite thing to do. So it was really a nice treat to be a passenger and enjoy the scenery, read or do whatever I wanted. I always said if I won the lottery, the first thing I would do is hire a permeant driver to drive me any and everywhere.

Be Kind...

Today I need to remember to be kind to myself. When I fall out of my routines even for a day or two, or sometimes weeks, it's better to "be kind" and start again. It doesn't do any good to be mad at myself for slipping, or allowing other things to be more important. The best thing I can do for myself and those around me is accept my humanness and begin again!

Define...

I realized yesterday how much I have been defining the "space" I am in right now in my life as being a failure, or a life of nothingness, but after talking to someone and listening to my own words as they were shared with another, I see this "space" that I'm in, as a transition. A time of discovery and learning, of seeing and thinking in new ways. Nothing has changed but my definition of that I see ~ which changes everything!

Connect...

Sometimes we all just need to be heard and listened too. Today I went to talk with someone and to find that person I could connect with on a regular bases just to chat about my struggles and hopes and dreams. I've always been a care taker and people have told me over the years what a good listener I am, but I've found myself lacking in my own place/space to find the safe and listening ear that I need. "They" say the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and expecting different results, so I decided to reach out and see what happens. I tried so hard to have what I was going to say all planned out, but I never did have my thoughts organized. But in the end all that I said was everything that needed to be said.

Battles...

"Be selective in your battles, for sometimes peace is better than being right."

Kushandwizdom

This is something I have certainly learned with age. Pick your battles! Many many years ago I had a hard time letting go when everything always seems like it was so wrong. I felt if I let it go, that it would never change,  so I held on so tight, changing nothing and having anything but peace. It feels much better today to just let it pass on by. 

Stop...

Stop.

Breathe.

Cry if you must.

I need this sometime ~ to remind myself in the present moment to stop... breath... and cry if I must!

Today...

"I Hope You Feel Beautiful Today."

http://you-are-beautiful.com/

I woke myself up an hour early today ( miscalculated my time)... I'm trying to find the beauty in these extra present moments. So I thought I would say ~ "I hope you feel beautiful today" to all those out there reading this. Pass it on to your family and friends and it will be a day filled with smiles! 

Missed...

I don't remember the last day I've written on my personal blog this week, but I do know I've missed it. I made a commitment to myself over a year ago that I would show up for my writing, no matter how small and I've done that by writing everyday on my blog. But this was an exceptionally busy ( in a good way) week and I was SO tired when I got home I couldn't even see straight. So I will just be kind and tell myself I do a great job and just because I fell off the wagon, so to speak, I will continue to show up and share my thoughts.

Flowing...

"When the student is ready the teacher will appear."

Because I am such a detailed oriented person, flowing with life is hard for me, but I've been trying to allow that more into my life. To just observe and flow with what is. So I guess I was ready, because a lady I work with on events is very - not detailed oriented ( even though the events have lots of details that go alone with them), she does not seem fazed by any of that process. Drives me crazy, but I've decided she is here to be my teacher, that will teach me how to better flow with what life gives me.

Mother...

Today may be the official day to recognize mothers but for me, everyday is mothers day. I've never wanted to be ANYthing more then a mother and I've cherished every moment I've had with each of my children. My older son doesn't live with me but when he comes up we eat together, caught up on all the little details of his life, play games and just enjoy our time. My two younger ones still live with me and it's always a joy to wake each day knowing I can be present and available to them ( even though they are old enough now to not need me as much), I adore watching them grow and make changes in their lives.

Personal...

"Sometimes I shut down and don't talk to anyone for days. It's nothing personal."

Raine Cooper

I do this from time to time and I would hope that others don't take it personally. As an introvert it's a way of recharging. Being out in the world is very hard for me and it takes a lot of energy - sometimes more then others. And on those times when I'm so drained, I shut down and retreat.

Embrace...

"Stop waiting for Friday, for summer, for someone to fall in love with you, of life. Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make the most of the moment you are in now."

www.itsalovelylife.com

A good reminder to stay present in the NOW! 

To embrace the very present moment I'm in and go with the flow. Be an observer and allow what is to be, then let it pass through me without resistence.

Silly...

I remember making shadow animals growing up, and it was a good reminder to be more child like and silly.

Blooming...

"Bloom Where Your Planted"

I've been inspired by natural a lot lately and today as I was bending down to observe a small creek, I was reminded of "bloom where your planted."  I saw random plants growing in the most unusual places and water finding a way to keep going despite the obstacles in its way. But it was all so beautiful and I thought, "my life is not all that I would like it to be, but I'm still growing ( blooming) and finding a way, despite what I see as obstacles in my life."

Melt down...

"Don't forget your human. It's okay to have a melt down. Just don't unpack and live there. Cry it out and then refocus on where you are headed."

I do forget often that I'm human. My mind is so busy surviving and working at keeping it all together that I don't allow the melt down and the good cry as much as my body asks for it. But the times I have, I do refocus and start again. It's a good reminder to embrace my humanness in this present moment.

Precious Time...

Today I had such high hopes for... I don't know. Something other then feeling blah. Mentally I couldn't seem to get myself to a better place and as much as I've told myself it was okay, it's hard feeling like I've wasted precious time.  I've pushed myself to "do things" but all I really wanted to do was - NOTHING! I kept doing things hoping the funk would lift but it hasn't, so as the evening coming, I guess "the mood" will too. It's all going to be okay... right?

Soul...

"Take time to do what makes your soul happy."

This is what I plan to do tomorrow. I'm sure I'll do other things on my list but I plan to be aware in the present moment to do something that makes my soul happy!

Human...

Recently I've gone back to the chiropractor and after doing some ex-rays, I was told that I have scoliosis.  I was a bit taken back, and a little sad when I asked him if I had continued to have gone (when I use to go years ago) would it have gotten this bad and he said if wouldn't have. It just hit home with me, that even though I eat really well, do yoga and try to find time to meditate, there are still areas that can be improved. As humans we are made up of - Mind, Body, Soul and each one needs our attention. It's easy to loose myself in everyday life, in worry, stress and fear. Even though I've had diagnoses a lot worse it was a wake up call to remind myself to bring a little more consciousness about this body I was given and how I'm taking care of it.